Thank you so much, Dodo….I needed to hear those words. I can’t live like this anymore. Since I wrote, he showed up yesterday morning, just near the house while I was walking our dog. He was teary, suicidal, and on his way to the hospital. I should have let him go then…but I brought him back to the flat and called 111. We had mental health workers make a home visit and they’re coming back today. I feel so manipulated and so mad at myself…
This is the first time he has made the steps to get help. The thing is, all energy I had gained while he was away for 3 days, was just lost. I’m back to being drained…
I know what I need to do…I’m going to go back home for 6 weeks and find my centre and strength again. The earliest I can leave is November 15th when all of my work projects finish.
Thank you so much for reading my post and for your honest words. They gave me so much strength….(even though as I write this I’m blubbering….)
All the best to you…if there’s ever anything I can do to support and return the kindness…
