[glen85]

I’ve went through physio, I lost 5 stone in weight just to help. I’ve never been a weighty person but lost it to see if it would help my back, if I walk I suffer the next day with what feel like a dry socket in my lower back. I feel the pain is reduced by using them but I also search for the eurphric high. I’ve done cold and hot treatments and nothing seems to help. I’m begging them for surgery but as it’s not effecting my bladder or bowels they wont do it. I said if there was a 5% chance of it working I’d take it. I’d love to go to a sandy beach holiday detox place. I really need the help so I can control my mind.

[glen85]

I got my family that will always help me. But I convince myself that I’m ok, I’m not to bad. I miss who I was. I’m 33 years old had a good job as a coach driver and I’m stuck in a rut. The 6 weeks cold Turkey was hell for me. Crying uncontrollably. Didnt want to be around anyone as I had anxiety attacks. I wish I knew what would happen if I took the drug but I was in a euphoric high. Wow what is this I’m feeling. Comfortable and relaxed. I wanted more. I used to drop 4 codiene and 4 tramadol at a time at my peak every 2 hrs. I’m down to about 16 a day on the codiene alone. I dont take tramadol anymore. My heart muscles are thick because of the abuse. I’ve never got a liver profile done I need to do it.

[glen85]

I get my partner to get some for me from her doctors too. In the last four years I’ve been mixing it with tramadol too. My back is in a lot of pain but what if it’s my head playing tricks?

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