[hardin365]

Top man, that devil is a bastard i tell you! ???? im really postive that i can and will beat it this time as before i didnt really want to if that makes sense…. yea i was up at 7 mate healthy breakfast and walk, usualy im at work or days off im waiting to get a bag and get smashed ….. silly as it sounds or it cpuld just be in my head but even the 2nd day i feel better..fresher, no face hurting or toothache and more energy ???? id like this locldown to carry on and pubs stay shut cos thats when it can go wrong but i just need to be strong and be on my own, mates arent mates when it comes to that and cant see a problem with it hemce why most are on the verge of losing everything like i did really but they wont listen, take it steady and ill email ypu in couple days for a catch up pal…appreciate it ????

[hardin365]

I havnt used once while ive had my kids mate and thats why i know i can stop, change routine.have goals and think differently to retrain a new way of life.ive deleted all numbers and same on socal media,its hassle if i wanted to get it….ive had a good tea tonight and ordered some gym equipment.ive not done more than 3 days pretty much clean for the last year pretty much but my mindset has changed im ready to kick this shit addiction for good…im from bristol, im desperate for gyms to reopen i can say that much

[hardin365]

Well done on 40 days mate massive achievement !! thanks for the reply, ive done CA and it wasnt really my thing, all stories were different and alot would leave the group and get a bag on the way home but week later pretend they were clean ???? ive done 14 weeks before and ended up relapsing on a night out, since then and lockdown losing my job last year has made it harder.along with court to see my 2 kids after a break up, through no fault of my own may i add my ex is just vile and heartless…if i had my kids full time od not touch the stuff and when i have them wether it be a day or a week i dont even think about it, today is my first day..ive deleted all contacts and and anyone who can get it for me…ive also ordered some boxing equipment and contacted a personal trainer…i used to box proffesionally around 10 years ago and mentaly and focus wise it kept me “normal” …..i know what i need to do and i know its going to be hard but this last year has literally ruined me mentally and physically, going cold turkey isnt great and im starting to feel the stomach pains set in already, ive taken today and tommorow off work to help, im certqinly more determined than i have ever been….my issue has always been money isnt really a problem as i run my own business so spending anywhere from £400 to £600 a week doesnt affect my life financially but i know having that money in the bank would be better.i really appreciate the reply mate.keep up the good work bud….i have no idea how to pm on here.where are you from anyway? Cheers

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