Ummm. Well, he doesn’t actually want help. Because I think he is terrified of how his life will be without drugs (weed mostly but he uses coke when he has some cash flow; usually by taking on a drug line and failing miserably at it cos ‘profits’ go on alcohol, weed, more sniff)….I defy anyone to say that weed is not a problem drug and it has certainly contributed to his very poor mental health. He has been using since he was 14. In some ways I think he does want to get out of the spiral. For instance, he has promised to go to the doctor today for referrals but I can’t get hold of him -it’s benefits day too, so the odds are off.
I think I have a weird co dependency problem with him-I can’t be out of his life cos I love him madly and he can’t be without me cos his lifelines are now reduced to myself and his brother (who lives in Australia).
I worry about my grandchild-his mother is a little unstable too, but having spent time with him last week, he seems quite switched on and a gorgeous happy little chap. But, damage will come.
I just don’t know what to do. I have stopped money again. But I know by the end of the week there will be his despair and pleading and threatening his life
