[harry123]

There is a good saying you don’t know what you have until it’s gone it’s so sad to see you’ve got this point where you have to leave, Coming from a cocaine addict myself you don’t see the damage or how much it affects everyone els by spending money that could be used els wear constantly telling lies about taking it or what your doing to avoid arguments but that ruins all trust and making promises that u Carnt keep as you want to keep them but you end up sniffing again and ruin everything then you promise you’ll never do it again then a day later your back doing it again and hating yourself for being so weak just a shame it takes loosing it to make you change

[harry123]

I’m a cocaine addict and I see all the same mistakes I made during my relationship I chose partying with my friends and didn’t realise how bad it was till it was to late now I’ve lost my kids and the only women who truly cared about me not just fake friends who don’t have your best interest at heart I see more and more men going through the same mistakes I made and I just hope someone can read this thread and change before it’s to late and they loose everyone that actually cares for them.

[harry123]

I’m a cocaine addict and I see all the same mistakes I made during my relationship I chose partying with my friends and didn’t realise how bad it was till it was to late now I’ve lost my kids and the only women who truly cared about me not just fake friends who don’t have your best interest at heart I see more and more men going through the same mistakes I made and I just hope someone can read this thread and change before it’s to late and they loose everyone that actually cares for them x

[harry123]

Hi not had that best few weeks replapsed numerous times really want to just get rid of this as it’s controlling my life but I know deep down inside it’s only me who can make this change and if I was serious I wouldn’t relapse like I have not been to a meeting yet but spoke on phone to someone who has been through it all and has made a change but I make a change for a day or 2 then I just revert back to being lazy ruin myself hopefully one day soon I can truly change instead of lying to myself every week glad your son is doing well it gives me hope that someone my age can beat this and be happy again x

[harry123]

Thanks for taking the time to read that Lindy it just felt nice to get it all off my chest cocaine is very self destructive I’m glad you son is doing well as it’s such a hard addiction to stop as there are so many triggers and “friends” who encourage you and let you relapse these last 2 years have been the worst of my life I don’t even remember what it’s like to be happy I still do get to see my kids but at best it’s 1 day a week and that’s if don’t relapse and have to cancel because I’ve done it again taking coke just let’s me escape for a few hours the sad life that I’m living but I know that taking it is only making me worse I do want to change but I’m a weak person but I’m gona look into CA groups now I’ve never heard of them before so hopefully they can help me last longer than 2 days before I relapse thanks L I really appreciate you taking the time to reply it’s put a smile on my face and I needed that thank you x

[harry123]

I know exactly how you feel I’ve sabotage every part of my life taking coke got to the point where I was taking it every day sat on my own peeking through curtains hearing noises thinking my door is gona get kicked off It makes me sick how many times I’ve had to cancel having my kids because Ive been sniffing all night and I’m laid in bed and know there’s no way I could look after them and I know I shouldn’t do it but I Carnt stop myself I say I’ll just have one line and thats it but it never is I’ve lost my family and partner due to coke and lieing about taking it now my life is just so sad I’ve been in this coke cycle for 2 years now where I hate myself wana die hope to fix my life then back doing it the next day if I was you I would speak to your partner and tell him how bad it is and that you need his help don’t risk loosing them like I lost mine as the regret I have knowing I chose coke over my family just destroys you

[harry123]

Hi I can tell you still care for him and that’s good as he hasn’t lost you yet for me cocaine does stuff to you that you would never act like normaly is he only taking coke on weekends when going out or is he taking it most days sniffing by him self as coke is a horrible addition it makes you sabotage everything good in your life he needs to have the realisation that he has a problem and wants help otherwise nothing will change but the only way I’ve found on beating the addiction is to avoid everything that encourages it like going out in town or to the pub or certain friends even tho you don’t want to it’s the best way as them friends don’t have your best interest at heart if they are letting you ruin your life and when he can do that you both will be happy together but while all the things that encourage him to take drugs is still there nothing will change in my opinion

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