[holstar99]

She was casually using on night outs every so often but since lockdown it’s became multiple nights a week. Yeh she just tells me what I want to hear and then does nothing about it. Yep multiple times and she gets upset and tells me she’ll change and she doesn’t wanna be this way but again nothing changes! I’ve told her if things don’t change I can’t stay and she promised she would but again she hasn’t I think it would actually take me leaving for her to realise but I don’t think I’m strong enough to actually do that. I’m ready to get a house and start a life but as long as she’s using we will never afford that.

[holstar99]

We’ve only been together 2 years, she does admit she has a problem and she’s been promising to get help but she’s scared and doesn’t know where to start! I try and help but after it’s been spoken about it goes right back round to the same situation. Must be awful to have children in this situation aswell can’t imagine how you feel having children aswell.

[holstar99]

I fee like I’m going through such a wave of emotions, one minute I’m sad and upset about it and the next I’m so so angry. I’ve tried my hardest to understand her mind and why she does it but I just don’t, she knows she’s going to lose me and it’s as if it doesn’t matter, I’m just not strong enough to walk away I love her too much

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