[hydroguy]

I’ve just reread what you guys have said and can see that you’ve actually already answered a lot of what I’m saying. I just really need to find a way to convince ‘sober me’ to deal with this properly and honestly.

[hydroguy]

Thanks so much for your replies guys. One of my biggest issues that I can see is that…. Not sure how to explain this properly. It’s only when I’m up late and high (again!) That I’m open enough to talk about the problem. The next day when I’m nice and sober again, I’m an incredibly closed off person that, not only doesn’t feel comfortable (and probably down right embarrassed) burdening other people with my problems, but I always convince myself that, it won’t happen again. I’ve got control of it now! I really do believe that I have to deal with this alone. And I realize how stupid it sounds that, if I can see this clearly then I should be able to get over it and do what needs to be done. But it’s just not the same when I’m sober. I’m a completely different person. I’m even embarrassed to talk to my doctor. I’ll save the links and suggestions you’ve given me though in the hopes that ‘sober me’ will actually make use of them. Thanks again so much for your replies x

[hydroguy]

Who exactly do I get help from?

[hydroguy]

Hey guys, thanks for the replies and the support. I guess my problem is that I only get to this point of realisation that I’ve fucked up and that I really need help once it’s too late. Once I’ve give in to the temptation and I’m up late regretting my decisions and actions. I just don’t know how to stop myself when I’m feeling down (but still sober) from saying “one drink won’t hurt”, “one sniff will be ok”. And before I know it it’s the early hours of the next morning and I’m still up regretting my decisions and my life as a whole. Wishing I didn’t need to do the things I’ve done?

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