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You just have to take it one step at a time. It’s like grieving, I feel I have lost him to the devil, only he can find his way back to a life that brings him comfort without drugs & alcohol. My ex has said he will go to counselling but I very much doubt it. I’ve had a few nights of drunken txts and manipulation because he’s sad & depressed but I’ve not given in.. I’m standing strong this time.

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Thank you so much for your kind words, it’s a great comfort knowing other people totally understand the pain which is associated with addiction. It’s totally heartbreaking and everyone has to reach their point where they can’t take anymore. I hope you & your husband are in a place where you can actually relax and not worry.

If we are honest I don’t think any loved ones of an addict can fully do that.

Detachment from them in some way is the best way forward though, so they know it’s just their choice and you don’t agree with it. Finally no more enabling

You take care

E.

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Then he’s given in to the addiction as it’s easier for him to keep trying. My ex won’t even admit he has a problem even though he’s been to rehab. It’s like the problem was fixed and he’s cured. It’s an illness, forever. So heartbreaking and it drains on your every emotion x

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I have just ended it with my boyfriend after a long exhausting 2 years. He’s been to private therapy funded by his parents and we even went to couples counselling.

I’ve kicked him out countless times and had him back time after time but with the sane outcome. Cocaine has won! I do understand addiction so much more now as I’ve educated myself about it, I had little to no understanding at the beginning of the relationship.

His addiction has ruined me but it’s ultimately ruining him more, everyday. It’s easy to say to people oh just leave, walk away but you do feel that guilt of abandoning them.

If he were to take an extreme amount of cocaine and died I know that’s not my responsibility, guilt I would absolutely feel but responsibility absolutely not.

He knows the path he should take and at times has wanted to continue on it but that drug just pulls him back.. I’ve left the door open as such to say if you decide you want help, I’ll always support you and I will always love you. But no more!! He’s at his parents now and I’m trying so hard to focus on me. My mental health has suffered significantly.

We all have to reach our limit, I’m relieved I’ve reached mine x

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