Hey, my story sounds very similar ladies, i’m right in the middle of the shit storm, he always had a problem with alcohol, but wouldn’t hear of it, in the last year or so ( he’d say 6 months) things have been awful- lies, money stolen, foul moods, missing in middle of nights, then missing odd days,just generally horrible. couple days ago he comes back in the morning after one of his night dissapearences and tells me he’s been doing crack with people on the streets, prostitutes, whoever. Now he’s told me and I’ve had a couple of days to chew it over, he’s not understanding that i’m not over it. It’s my fault now as i’m so hard to live with. ( I do suffer serious depression and anxiety- exaserbated by his behaviour at times)
I know he is suffering from addiction and it’s an illness, but I want to just smack him! I feel terrible, I mean, smacking someone when they’re ill, what have I turned into????
Sending hugs to you ladies, i’m sorry that you are going through it too, thinking of you.