[jaffacake]

Thank you for replying James its really interesting to hear from different perspectives. I am trying to give him space and am trying to understand but when it comes down to it I don’t understand at all. We have been out tonight with his brother and his wife who have no clue as to what has been going on. My husband has not had a drink tonight and I think this is to show me he can kick his bad habits. I however have had numerous drinks and am feeling pretty vulnerable as I am drunk. I am trying to move forward as if this hasn’t ever happened and I feel I could be in denial. The trouble is I believe that my husband has stopped and I believe it is as easy as that…. All the secrecy and lies were just a thing he was doing and now he has owned up and he has stopped. I understand this makes me naive but it sits well with me and allows me to feel like things as are normal again. Maybe I’m just ranting but this is how I feel right now as I type this. I do believe he can change and some of the stories on here are purely negative which makes it hard for me to be positive and believe anything my husband says. Time will tell what will happen and I suppose only I cam make any decisions about my future. Thanks to everyone who had read and replied

[jaffacake]

I feel like I need to change my behaviour. I have sat and had a few drinks tonight which I feel is wrong but he’s gone to a meeting so it’s not in front of him. I feel I need to change myself…. I watch TV and see someone with an addiction and all of a sudden it dawns on me my husband is an addict…. It makes me really sad and I was almost annoyed that he was going to a meeting tonight. I want to support him I really do but I just still feel annoyed with him and myself for not noticing. It’s like a realisation period I feel I am in, thst my husband has a serious problem with cocaine and that also makes me sad

I just want a normal life which I suppose we all do so I will have to see what happens over the next few weeks

I have bought some drug tests as well off ebay which i am going to spring on him in a few weeks. I feel like such an idiot even typing thst but it’s what I have done. Thanks again for chatting to me

[jaffacake]

Thanks for replying. I appreciate you sharing your experiences. I think I am possibly looking for an answer and there isn’t one. I have to decide things myself. It’s just a worrying time as I don’t know what to believe and I feel like he’s let me down really badly….. I will see how things progress and I suppose take it from there. Thanks again for sharing

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