Yo man I completely feel you, in fact that’s more or less why I came here on the first place, my cousin had something similar to you happen a while ago. He got into heroin though, gladly he was able to get out of that terrible thing but it was an awful experience for all of us and well, it all came down to canabis being a gateway drug as cliche as that might sound. I agree it’s not the same with everyone and many handle it without a problem but I am positive there are certain cases where it is absolutely possible for cannabis to be totally negative