[jane2504]

Try to stay strong and try to concentrate on other things. Thats the only way I survive with my three girls. I am constantly telling myself that they are making the choice to do what they do. Parents are supposed to die for their children but mine cant NOT take drugs even knowing their babies are suffering and the youngest has even lost her boy forever. I’m not allowed to see him either but I’m still glad he is having a good life with his father and his fathers family. Children should come first but my children put themselves first. They are adults making decisions to put everyone through this stress. They wouldn’t die if they didn’t do it! Pure selfishness and they try to put the guilt on us! I feel for you.xx

[jane2504]

I feel your pain. Its so sad. I know how you must be feeling. I only manage to cope by closing my mind to it (as much as I can). I wish I could win the lottery and put them all in rehab but they would probably just use again!

[jane2504]

Thanks for your comments. I feel so sorry for my grandchildren. I really don’t believe children should have to see such things but that thought makes me unpopular with my children. Besides all this I also feel so embarrassed. My girls used to be lovely and to see what drugs has done to them is heartbreaking. They don’t have a good tooth left in their heads yet the oldest is only 34. Its like I live 2 lives and I’m constantly stressed that my professional life will meet my personal. I moved back to where my children lived a couple of months ago. Two years ago I had thyroid cancer and I didn’t tell them hardly anything because I didn’t want to be a reason for them to take drugs. But I realised that my grandchildren were growing up not knowing me. I used to blame my ex for getting my children into this but now I have to concede they are making their own decisions. I truly believe that drugs are the plague of the modern times. I’m so sad for my children and grandchildren. Its like everyone always showing off their families so proud and I just stay silent. I married and had them young but I never took drugs or drank yet they are all on self destruct courses and I do feel guilty.

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