[janette132]

Thanks Georgia for all your kind and positive words to me it means a lot honest it really does x

Well he is 47 years old and has absolutely nothing because of drugs in his life and now met me, who is a working class woman with my own house and car and to be truthful he would be stupid not to even try to give them up and I’ve he would go back using he knows he would be on the streets or in some Druggies den and have nothing but drugs in his life because everybody would really disown him x

Plus he has no job and now I’ve took his bank card so he has no access to any money only by asking me.

Sometimes I ask god to myself why do I deserve all this in my live when all I wanted was to met a good guy and have a nice life !!!!

Anyway x fingers crossed things will get better from now on x I’ll keep you updated x I’m still smiling dispite the rough rite x thanks again x

[janette132]

Goodmorning Georgia

Well he not used since Thursday!!!!!

Bin a rollercoaster but looking positive up too now but don’t wanna jinx anything coz it’s still early days x

But I told him if he still using and I ever find out any different, we are over so he told me he can’t afford to lose me x x

[janette132]

Well it’s day two of him being drug free 72 hours and what a night !!!!!

He is proper rattling this morning but he still got his mind set that he doing this ….

Well fingers crossed that he keeps it up x I’m working a night shift tonight so I’m hoping he sleeps while I’m in work x x

[janette132]

Well it’s bin 29 hours since he last used x

Omg he in my arms like a baby ….

I’ve cried and I’ve got not tears left x but he is holding in here x god help me what tomorrow will bring x fingers crossed he holds out x I do love him so much x god give me strength x please I need your help

[janette132]

Well he is at my place and he lives about 30 miles away and he has no money and I have is bank card which is 0 balance anyway x so I was thinking he can’t go anywhere anyway x

[janette132]

Omg I’ve come out and left him in bed cold turkey and come to seek some help myself from my nearest drug group, he will go mad if he knew where I am but I can’t handle all this alone and I can’t just leave him to get help alone ….

I hope I’m doing the right thing !!!!

At the moment I’m sat in the cafe thinking is this good thing I’m doing, my hands are shaking thinking I’m about to disclose his drug addict x

I’m on the verge of crying and I’m not even in to see anybody yet x

[janette132]

Thankyou Georgia for your support, I’ll keep you updated, I seriously don’t think I’m gonna handle all this with him but he told me if I don’t stick around he would be a lot worse and he can’t do this alone x

He wont seek any other help x

[janette132]

Well he came out of the doctors and told me the doctor told him he couldn’t help ….

which I know is a lie .

So we didn’t speak for the rest of the day and he didn’t use coz he stayed in the same room ask me,

This morning he is cold turkey and it’s breaking my heart to see , so wish me luck for the rest of today coz I guess he not gonna stick around, I keeping to my promise and not gonna give in and give him money for his drugs so I’m gonna have a day from hell x

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[janette132]

Well quick update …

We are at the doctors together to get this drug issue sorted out for our relationship x he got shouted in and then last minute asked me to wait outside x

Anyway ….

it’s all now or never coz if he doesn’t seriously do this we are definitely over and he knows this x

Soooo let’s see x my fingers and toes are crossed ???? x

[janette132]

I’m so sorry to hear you got to leave your home with your children.

I’m living with a addict but luckily I don’t have any children to consider.

He not bin violent with me up to now but he threatened me not to leave him and what the consequences will be if I ever did .

I’m just hope and praying things will change for me x

I wish you all the luck in the world for you and your children x

[janette132]

Well he going the doctors on the 14 March about his addiction and to see what they can offer, I’ve told him he needs to stop this addiction or I’m walking because, 1, I’m not use to being around drug addicts and I don’t know anything about drugs, 2, I’m working full time and I seem to be giving you money for your addiction which I can’t really afford, 3, he not working and living in my house without any money from you at all.

4, your using in my house which I hate.

He got til Thursday to make a change or even see to make a change or it’s over …..

He has gave me his bank card which his dole money goes in and told me too have it when it goes in the bank but we will see …..

I’ll keep this updated to see if there is anything positive changes x

Thanks for listening x

[janette132]

Well since I have been spending more time with my partner his addiction has come more to light, he told me he was addicted to codine but he got a heroine addiction, he got £500 pound from his dole money on a Friday and by the Monday he was asking me to lend him money….

I have chosen to stick by him but I’ve told him if he doesn’t stop using he gonna lose me and he on his own x

[janette132]

Thank you for your reply x I do have a friend I talk too but all they say is to leave him and I could do mikes better, which doesn’t help me at all x

[janette132]

Well today post ;

Found him using drugs in the bathroom last night, telling me he was sorry and he going to get clean, I went out to work this morning and I nipped home on my lunch and he nowhere to be seen, when I get home from work at 8 tonight after doing a 12 hour shift, I know he will ring me asking me to pick him up from his drug den, don’t know weather I can keep this up with him ….

I can’t concentrate at work with constantly worrying about him !!!!!! ????

[janette132]

I’m so greatful for sites like this because I feel so alone with my partners addiction and none of our family and friends know about things, so I don’t have anybody to talk to about his fanatic behaviours .

I got a call from him yesterday at work saying there is a woman at the door saying I’m having an affair with her husband, I couldn’t believe that he would do that to me while I’m trying to earn a living and a roof over our head ….

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