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I’m struggling still Dan. Didn’t even make it thru the week. Do u fact swapping numbers somehow so maybe we can speak to each other? It might boost our willpower?
I used to smoke weed as a teenager. I loved the stuff. Could never see me stopping. But I hated it by the end. Smoking it at home alone caused me massive paranoia and guilt. It made me useless and I just wanted to sleep as soon as I had done it. I went to Amsterdam and passed out in a coffee shop I was that high. It put me off for life. I got with a girl and still smoked. But then one day I stopped. Just like that. I had the odd drag now and again but on the whole I probably haven’t bought weed in over ten years. Then I quit smoking one day when I woke up and just decided to stop. However. I have always drank and dabbled in cocaine. I cannot shake either of those habits… so I’m guess I’m saying weed is a fairly easy habit to kick, but if he has an addictive personality such as me, he will just replace it.
I have a friend who sounds exactly like ur bf. He has smoked weed for 15-16 years everyday. And wants to stop for his gf and start a family. He can’t do it. She tolerates it but secretly hates it.
I’m not sure what problems it cause though. Weed is near enough a legal drug. But I can’t imagine everyone taking it up as readily as alcohol if it becomes legal. Why don’t u like it? Because it is an illegal substance? Or because if how it makes him behave? Or something else?
Two of my friends lost their dads through alcoholism. Both of them love/loved to drink. One of them went to rehab three years ago abs been sober since. The other one seems to have a bit of control over it, but he definitely drinks most nights in excess My point is addiction is hereditary. Usually it runs in the family. My mum is an non confessed alcoholic, me I Abuse substances and drink and am starting to seek help through these forums. I lie to my loved ones all the time, but the addiction is much stronger than my love for anyone. I can’t really explain it…She is diagnosed with anxiety and takes medication. I should do the same but am too proud to admit I need it. The irony is my pretty normal gf takes meds for anxiety and I’m not sure why. My point I guess I if u need help, go get it. It is a disease. We’re powerless against addiction.
Currently it’s been once a week at the weekend. One or two grams. So not a massive amount but it’s enough to ruin my whole weekend. I can go through periods of weeks or even months without it. I just seem to slip back into a habit. It’s usually hand in hand with alcohol.
Currently doing nothing more than relying on willpower, which clearly isn’t enough.
Thanks btw kindred it’s good to be listened to
I guess the meeting didn’t feel right for me. A bit too religious and righteous. Maybe thought I was too good for it. Or couldn’t commit to it? I know they are meant to be the best way of getting clean but I guess it’s admitting that I have a problem and I guess I’m struggling to do that again. Especially after been given an ultimatum off the missus. I’m scared to lose everything.
I fee exactly the same. I can sit here doing cocaine without a care for my partner upstairs. Trust us he isn’t doing it deliberately to upset you. We’re creatures of habit, that we can’t escape. Your boyfriend sounds exactly like I feel. And behaves exactly like myself. My own gf never realised how I was behaving though, I have/had an urge to get caught. I want her to know. To the point when I told her. I literally grabbed her in the middle of the night one night and told her what I had been doing. I woke her up at 3am thinking if I shared this problem then that would be it. She still thinks I’m clean. I love coke more than anything. It’s weird. More than my own family. It beholds me when I think about it. I can’t get the feeling out of my head. And I must do it. I’ve been a meeting once and could talk. So this I guess is my confession. My cry for help. Does anyone want to chat? Now she thinks I am clean. I still can not control my addiction. It’s unbearable. I’ve read books and watched tv programs about people with addiction and it’s unreal. It’s a real problem. Bigger than cancer I think. We just don’t get the same press. We dont anything deliberately. Please can someone chat?