Thank you for your reply. I know quitting addiction can be done it’s just so hard! I could be doing well and then all of a sudden I’ll be driving along and think I’ve done well surely a little gram won’t hurt even know every time i do cocaine I leave myself in the shit because I gamble every time! Always I won’t do more than a £50 gambling while on cocaine no matter what. Every time fail. I also drink a lot while on it. The thing that really gets me is I have so much to live for I have a beautiful kind girlfriend I have three children who need me. I have a good job that I’m messing up. My urges always get the better of me. I can’t go to the doctors about my cocaine addiction because I don’t want it on my record as I am going through getting access to see me children with my ex. Sometimes I wonder whether my children will be better off without me. I’m not looking for any sympathy I don’t know what I’m looking for. J just can’t carry on like this and even knowing that change is needed I know what I’m like and I’m scared. My girlfriend knows I have a problem with gambling but not cocaine. I believe she will get rid of me if she ever finds out about that. I’m alone apart from having her and I haven’t got strength anymore to carry on alone.
