Sorry to hear about your situation, it’s very hard feeling so helpless, when all you want to do is help the person you love. My husband always tells me I don’t understand what he’s going threw and that’s why he chose the path he did. I know it’s hard but you shouldn’t turn a blind eye to it, which is what I did for so long hoping the situation will go away. You need to look after yourself, you don’t want to end up poorly. I know it’s a very stressful situation to be in, and your partner will never see the stress he’s putting you under, he won’t be able comprehend that he’s the actual cause of it.
For so long I didn’t tell my family hardly anything of what had been going on due to the fact I never wanted them to have a bad opinion about him. However, it got to stage I couldn’t cope I felt alienated due to the fact his own family knew everything and didn’t understand how I felt. So I told them and a couple of friends, who are very supportive but at the same time think I should leave him, which is hard to completely separate from him.
I hope you have people around you who are supportive and you feel you can talk to. Just remember your never alone.
Love
Jessie05