[jojo22]

Feeling very lonely right now, but I see lots of people are in the same boat as me on here. My husband has been on and off taking cocaine for years. Racks up hundreds of pounds of debt. Says he’ll never do it again. Then invariably he ends up doing it again after a while of being clean. He admitted to me a few days ago that he had been using again “but only a little bit.” Then, some lovely dealers arrived at our door demanding payment. He has racked up huge debts again. In his addiction, he has also lost his job.

I have now ended things with him until he can get clean, and even then I’m not sure I could take him back. I can’t keep going on like this, but I am so hurt and saddened. Like so many of you have said, he is such a good person when he is clean, but when he is on coke, he is unrecognisable. I no longer believe a word that comes out of his mouth. It’s nothing but lies, and more lies.

I guess I just wanted to reach out to others who know what I am going through. I feel like I am in a very lonely place right now.

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