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I’ve told him I will always love him and that he must get the right help, demand it if he must. And I totally agree, he is the most amazing man I’ve met he tret me and my children like gold he was such a loving person, until the cocaine come down turned him into a person I didn’t recognise. I’ve told him I’ll always wait for him to beat this and when he does I’ll be here. But until then there is no chance for us.
It’s a comfort knowing somebody else understands my pain, I can’t understand his addiction and I hope and pray that one day he will be free of cocaines grasp. Xxxx

[just-me]

Your story really has bought me to tears, the past 48 hours have been so painful for me, not knowing where he is how he’s feeling whether he’s suicidal or not. My son cried for an hour lat night because he misses him. I just don’t know what to do, I know he is the only person that can help himself and that is so frustrating. I don’t want him to end up dead all alone somewhere at the age of 28. I never imagined things would end up like this. I’m feeling guilt, shame, anger, hate and such a pain in my heart because the man I fell in love with no longer exists.
Finding a rehab centre is impossible, doctors are useless and I don’t know where to turn. I do hope Lucy that you live your life to the full in memory of your loved one and I am sending big hugs xxx

[just-me]

This story is so similar to mine. I had to tell my partner to leave yesterday, I knew he was am addict in the past but found out yesterday it wasn’t kept on the past, in fact the using . never stopped. Cocaine has turned him into a different person and there was no way I’m having an addict around my kids so he had to go. I’m In pieces, almost grieving for the man I fell for, grieving for what could have been. I agree with everybody here that you have to get your children away from him. I’ve done it and I never thought I could but the kids are number one. I still don’t under stand addiction, I’m hurt confused and almost ashamed that I’m not good enough to come before a line of white powder. It’s great seeing everybody giving support and advice xxx

[just-me]

Thank you so much for your reply, it has literally bought me to tears. I know I’ve done the right thing for my children but even so the pain im feeling inside is unbearable. It’s almost as though I’m grieving for what could have been, for what he could have been if it weren’t for the disgusting powder he puts up his nose.
I can never understand the addiction he knows that, he has still been texting, the usual self pitying and I just feel like screaming what about me??!!! I don’t know whether to cut all contact or to stay in touch just to see how he’s getting on, I just don’t know. I do worry he will commit suicide. One thing is for sure he will not step a foot in this house again as an addict.
I am trying to stay strong but this pain inside keeps erupting. Thank you so much for your kind words, it is a huge comfort speaking to somebody who knows what I’m going through. My family are supportive but they do not under stand bin a way. I just dread to think my ex partner will end up dead at only 28, I will always care about him..I think that’s the saddest thing about it xxx

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