Hello, this is my first post. The problem I have is that my husband has no off switch with drinking. He doesn’t drink all the time but when he does he turns into another person that I do not recognise or like anymore. The other issue I have which started during lockdown is that once drunk he will order cocaine to our house. We have a young daughter. I have found residue on tables that he hasnt bothered to clean off etc. Christmas Eve just gone he rang his dealers to drop off coke leaving money outside. I happened to be leaving the Santa the key with daughter and dealers were outside in car. I’d found the money and shut the door- husband in a drunk state asleep on sofa. Told a close friend I’d had enough who spoke with him. He then did it again NYE. Weekend just gone he drank again, promised me he wouldn’t phone them, yes you guessed, same scenario as Christmas Eve. He says with him cutting down drinking it won’t happen “ as much” told him I’m not prepared to wait around and see or trust him. Feel like walking away it’s ruined our relationship. Sorry for the long post!