[kf88]

Oh it is, this is the first time ive really spoken about everything, im quite closed off and dont really talk about how im feeling. Its good to know that other people feel the same and even though its shit they can also see a happy ending like me. I beleive that we cud be beyond happy if he just stopped. He is a completely different person when hes on it, and thats just not who he is. I hope u are ok. I always question is it easier to be the addict or be in love with the addict.

[kf88]

Thankyou for your reply, its just so hard, i love it when he is himself and we are a happy little family but it seems the bad days are now out waying the good. I have the worst self esteem ever, im constantly paranoid or worried, being forever let down, hurt and argued with. I just wish he cud see things from my side and feel the hurt and upset i feel, but its always about him and my emotions and feeling never get considered. Its so hard, ive said i hate him when he uses but deeply love him when hes him, i feel thats why i dont just leave but im not sure how much more i can take. I understand its an addiction and its not as easy as to say just stop, but i feel i cant help him but also cant walk away.

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