Hi I’m 5 years in but all you say sounds like my life. Today I’ve had the most vile things said to me. Never loved me. Says what I want to hear. My kids don’t stay in their rooms as they are teenagers it’s to get away from me like he does. Pops to his car for his swigs of vodka. Wants out and always has done. I make him unhappy as I’m a nag etc etc etc
He said I’m pathetic and not worth anything
I feel a fool because when he’s on top of the addictions everything he says and does makes me feel the luckiest women alive so I argue it’s the demons making him unhappy but then I’m
Told I’m manipulating him!