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In June the wife caught me and I left the house as I saw her as an obstacle to me having a great time (what a fallacy).

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I made countless excuses to my wonderful wife about why I hadn’t come upstairs, working late, fell asleep on the couch, too hot (all lies).

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In April I believe when the gyms were back open I appeared to have got back on track and going back to good habits. The “old me” was back…..for 6 weeks and then Mid-May here we go again. The sleepless nights with myself downstairs while my beautiful family slept upstairs.

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Hi Bahega. Key for me was creating a life I wanted to live as opposed to the old life minus the coke. I respect the “Beast” within and don’t ignore it else it festers like an elephant in the room which you’re desperately trying to avoid. Write down what it is you want to be, have some principles you want to abide by and again write them down. You seek clarity when you do this. Imagine if the constraints of those vices weren’t weighing you down, what would you want to do? Dream….dream big….coke stopped me from doing many things, now that I’m nearly 5 months clean I feel reborn and am extremely overcome with gratitude with this new way of being

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