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I recently found out my partner is injecting heroine. I’m losing sleep every night thinking about it. I don’t trust him even going to the toilet anymore/

I hate everything about drugs I find spoons and citric acid and pins everywhere. It was only when I could see the brown residue in the needles I realised he was injecting.

Before this he was 2 years clean of it. He started by smoking it. And I stood by him though this. He said he had injected the heroine as a suicide attempt and now smokes it because of the withdrawals. I supported him until he got his medication. And life was good. He was even one of the first people of his drug group not to take heroine within a week of medication.

But this is so much worse. I get told I encourage it because I’m paranoid. I’m not paranoid I see the messages. He says hurry my mrs will see or ive just jumped out the window bro hurry she thinks I’m in the shower.

He has stolen from me and my dad. And even sold his Christmas present I got him. I’m tired and I’m crying every night.

I’ve just fallen pregnant which was a big surprise. I’ve wanted children all my life and we didn’t think it was possible. We had been trying for 6 years. Now it’s happened and I don’t know what to do. I’m alone and I never imagined that happening.

I need to leave him but I love him so much. He’s 23 he’s a baby I feel I shouldn’t give up on him. He’s young. But then again he never thinks about me. I’m crying to him everyday begging him to talk to me and just tell me shut the **** up ruining the day. I’ve found his heroine 3 times now hidden in different place. He has black thumbs from the lighter and his vain is a mess. He covers his arms all day but I seen it while he was sleeping and must have taken his top of because he’s hot.

I need someone to talk to as I fee so damn alone?I’m only young. My upbringing was not like this. I come from a family that doesn’t even agree with smoking cigarettes. Huhhhh I don’t know what to do. I just want him to change but I think it’s too far this time and it’s not just me I’m thinking about anymore

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