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Emailed u, thank you

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Yeah mostly when sober tbh.

He sticks to the same dealer mostly who I spoke to and told him that he was killing himself after overdosing and spending the weekend in the hospital he swore he wouldn’t deal to him again but to them it’s a business they couldn’t care less

I have control of all he’s wages now but he’s dealer will give him upto £300 tick so u don’t find out he has relapsed until it needs paying like NOW!

But and he is really good with it and understands I need to have my mind at rest if he is getting a cold or don’t have much of an appetite I do piss test him weekly.

On another note I do have a personal question I’d rather not put on here and know we can’t put phone numbers or anything out so is there another way of me asking u privately do u know?

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Ok so he don’t drink anymore for that reason has had 2 beers since Xmas but the hard part is he is a delivery driver for a supermarket so regularly has to drive in that area.

I have never judged or rowed with him after a relapse I listen and I try to understand, I have stopped him going out a few times also for this reason. We thought maybe if he had a reminder of what he had if he felt a relapse coming it would help so we put a happy family photo as he’s screen saver so that’s what he saw as he went to call dealer but that didn’t work either.

He is coming up to 4 weeks clean again and I can’t help but worry x

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Can I please have some of your experiences, my partner is a recovering coke addict and I feel sometimes because I love him so I tend to just take he’s word for thing in the effects of it and what not.

Can u tell me what u go through before a relapse at all? That’s where we r still struggling he will go upto 8 weeks clean then relapse but I need to hear from someone else if possible what goes through your mind before u do actually relapse

Thank you

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He got up to 65 tablets a day but after a visit to the doctors where he played the amount down, I spoke up and told the truthful amount

He is now 5 days clean of any codiene!

I’m amazingly proud of him even after the come down from them, the sweats, insomnia, stomach pain, loose stools and so on, he is free of them hopefully for the foreseeable

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Hi gabdi what addiction do you want my experience of the cocaine or the codiene?

The cocaine he was using very heavily for a year then and still large relapses every 8 weeks or so.

The codiene he started taking for headaches he got up to taking 65 tablets a day I honestly have no idea how he is still standing with either addiction.

He seems to have a high resistance to all drugs tbh with the coke he had done upto 3G a day with seemingly little effect.

It’s hard to love someone with an addiction because with that comes the lies, debt and lack of affection because that drug is so much stronger than the love u share as hard as that is to admit. He tells me once he is craving the coke (stressful day or whatever makes the crave come on) he thinks of nothing else not home, me, the kids, he’s life nothing but the gear until he has it and it’s gone then the guilt sets in, the fear of telling me he has relapsed (which he know he will have to tell me eventually because I now handle all the financial aspects) the guilt and fear that he may lose me and the kids because how much more can I take!? It makes him a very selfish person while he is using, he is quick to anger, always stressed and always disrespectful of what he actually has, however I stick by him because I know under it all he is a decent loving and kind man he just has many issues. I’m a strong woman and I love him madly and deeply so while I can be as strong as I am I’ll always have he’s back as long as he is trying to stay clean that is all I ask of him

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