[lexi]

Sorry I replied to myself by mistake you can tell im new! X

[lexi]

Thanks for your reply its just heartbreaking i am so torn i want to leave him because of the hurt and the arguments he is causing but i also love him so much i want to stay and get through this but i just can’t see light at the end of the tunnel at all. We took the kids out for the afternoon he loves those kids and if he makes an effort for anyone its them, but walking round i was looking at him and he’s changed before my eyes he honestly looked off his face and it sounds horrible to say this but i was embarrassed and ashamed of him he has no care for himself or his appearance now i just feel iv completely lost him to cocaine. I can’t get away from this loneliness I have absolutely nobody to talk to my mum died 12 years ago and if i told my dad he would be beyond disgusted he is old fashioned and old school and already thinks my husband is a bit of a loser god he doesn’t know the half of it! His parents know he’s struggling he did confide in them a while ago but they have no idea of the extent or what im dealing with, they are also extremely judgemental people we don’t have the best relationship with them. So I just don’t know what to do I want to leave but 12 years with 2 kids I wouldn’t know how to be without him I would be heartbroken. Not to mention I have no money I only work part time i couldn’t keep me and the kids going. Im scared.

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