[lexie]

Hi ginger,

You haven’t failed at all. My brother has been a cocaine addict for over 10 years (hes 33) and Im the daughter (now 23) of a mother who felt exactly the same way as you. Please don’t think that you have failed.

As for your son, I can tell you he does have a mother, and that it’s painful seeing you this way. I can understand what he has seen and heard and my heart goes out to him. Please, if you can and obviously this is your choice-talk to him. I can tell you from the years watching my mum being destroyed by my brothers habits, all I wanted to do was hug her tight, and talk to her about some of the things I was feeling at the time and hope that she felt that she could talk to me ( depends on how old your son is- I know it can be hard). I know It’s not exactly a “happy” topic to be talking about with your son, but I think it needs to be done eventually and in a strange way it brought my mother and I closer. But I want you to know, you are a great mother, becuase you care. Stay strong not only for your son but for yourself too.

[lexie]

Thank you. I really needed that today. I only found this website today and it’s truly saved me from myself. Completely understand feeling older than you truly are- takes its toll- but nice to know that someone is with me. I’m gonna definitely check out the 100 on Netflix and try some of your techniques, I guess it’s hard sometimes to take a breath and think when your mind is just racing, especially during these times. Hope you and your children are keeping safe during these times as well.

Thank you again for your kindness 🙂

[lexie]

Thank you 🙂

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