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Hey,

I’m so sorry you have been through all that.

The thing is, he is such a good guy when clean, he has been a true gent and can’t do enough.. sometimes a little too over the top with things. We had just booked a holiday for May time…

He does have some things that have worried me a little… like not always able to listen to me, attention is very short. He jumps from one conversation to another to another.. he gets very very excited about things.. but can get very down too. I do find myself on eggshells a little at times… but he has been exercising, eating well, and seemed like he was on the right track.

He has told me of history’s of ex partners that have app screwed his head up. He has accused me of cheating… and also when he had the drugs and alcohol he sent me codes to pictures ibhave sent him previously.. like there was hiden meanings or codes inn the pictures???.. I presume thus is all drug related?

Thank you for been so honest, I know it’s only 3 months but I just didn’t want to be another person who left him and couldn’t see the good he can be…

The abuse he has dished out has been quite terrifying and it’s made me very anxious and had a few panics yesterday . I’m really jumpy today and on edge everytime phone pings… but if he was a different person Bec of the drugs ..

I don’t know.

Thank you again. I’m just trying to understand if this can be cured and get better x

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