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Hi mums ,dads husbands,etc I came on here tonight to see how you were all doing ? Some good news and some not so good ..well mine is never good and I feel it never will be .sorry .my son has now been kicked out of the hostel because he cant abide by rules he needed to be back by midnight give or take a bit .couldn’t do it ,needed to keep £3 do do his washing again couldn’t do neither could he keep hold of a key or engage with agencies or his benefits or probation. 30 year old and I cannot see any end to this disastrous lifestyle..

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Hi Jennifer ,hox and all you other mums and wives yes its exhausting isnt it I feel worn out again this morning been waking up all night with palpitations fretting and worrying.yes I do know that feeling Jennifer all day everyday I battle with myself saying I’m going to keep my distance until he starts to try to sort himself out I’m going to tell him what I think ….and then I hear from him if he has a phone and I go all soft on him I dont know when any of us are actually going to feel normal again with this terrible black cloud hanging over us and our loved ones …thinking of you all xxx

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Hi lou1321 that’s very nice of you made me fill up but that doesn’t take much anymore and yes some days we try to cut ourselves off and say Enough ! But it’s so very difficult..you take care also xxx

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Oh God it sounds like a bloody chat line sorry hahaha x

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Hello again I’ve just looked at the posts again and I hope you dont all think I’m a complete misery ? Because I never have any good or positive news but that’s only about my son..and hes been taking drugs !of some description since he was 18 .but without all that I am cheerful and like to laugh and love happiness xxx is anyone still awake to chat ?

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Hi buttonboy Paula loulou Danon and all you other mums of addicts I dont think any of us have had much to say on the forum for a while ? I have been tempted to post to see if anyone wanted to chat ? But sadly I have no motivating news for anyone as things with my son are not changing hes still not engaging hes withering away I haven’t seen him since last week .anyway I’m just going to stop for a min as I was just about to tell you all a lengthy tale about the terrible devastating life of my 30 yr old …11year of cocaine addiction son but actually I’m worn out with talking about it I met my lovely friend who has alsohelped with probs with my son “the only friend “!! Who I have ever really talked to who also loves my son I told her that I devastes me every day and every minute of my life I think about him before I eventually drift off I do need a sleep aid only from tesco!I wake during the night several times and when it’s time to get up I’m exhausted and turn my phone on then I wait ..and if theres no bad news hes got through another day or night that is how bad being the mum of an addict is I said to my friend tonight you could never imagine or wish the feelings we have on anyone and I will never be able to feel real happiness again…sorry and hope you dont mind my rant it’s all been building up and I hope you all know how it makes us feel xxx

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Fingers crossed for you Paula but its sounding good ..its lovely to hear some nice news for a change ..enjoy the rest and keep us updated xxx

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Hi all I’ve just been reading your posts some good news and some bad news thinking of all the people like me who only get the bad news let’s keep hoping our lovely lads get there acts together and accept the help that “apparently “is out there when they choose to engage. Xx

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Hi Amethyst 2018 I’m just wondering how you are ? And hoping things are going ok with your son xxx

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Hi button boy I’m really sorry to hear about your son and maybe we are fools but I’ve paid lots of debts off over the years and my son us still an addict has no job and lives in a hostel so it didn’t help him sadly your son has a job and a car so he will probably be able to pay you back myself I would be tempted to pay the debts its difficult to say no as a mum I borrowed money on credit cards I never got it back but I wanted to protect him and keep him safe I have been told I shouldn’t of done it but it’s a terrible situation to be in and we just want to help Good luck with your decision. Xxx

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I know it takes over our lives if he engages with drug rehab ie inspire (that’s the one up north) he should get into rehab my so got about 8 months at a place called shardale it was great then he got a supported house but he walked away but not everyone does there are lots of places out there that you shouldn’t need to pay for .xxx

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I’m so sorry you are I this position.my son went for a few months he said “I won’t be going there again its hideous ” but I suspect he more than likely will because sadly he doesn’t appear to be trying to change I dont know how true this is but his probation officer who is sick of his unreliability told me if hed of been there longer he could of got more help but on the other hand I believe they can get drugs whenever they want and usually come out with more debt than they went in with . .so God only knows it’s a vicious circle I’m sorry I cant make you feel any better threaten him about going if he doesn’t try to change ??? Xxx

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Oh God that’s scary and difficult I hope your ok? It would probably depend on weather someone was in danger or could be and also your son but it’s not easy as a mum xxx

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Hi to all of you will this hideous epidemic end ? I think it will only get worse I’ve been reading all your posts with tears rolling down my face .I haven’t posted much as I’ve nothing positive to say I spent a few hours with my son today we called to see his loving grandparents and we got some of his washing done and went out for lunch my mum said later how I’ll and thin he looked I got him some bits of shopping and dropped him back at the hostel If i could get him a little flat and pay his rent and look after him he wouldn’t get better it’s all i wish and hope for but until he stops taking that life destroying drug he wont ..sorry about all your misery i hope we can all be happy one day if our beautiful boys can be fixed love to you all xx

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Hi button boy I am so very sorry to hear your awful and devastating news it is hard to be able to say anything to make you feel any better. It breaks our hearts when we cant help ..hope your going to be ok .I know you wont but it’s a struggle to find any words of encouragement as I know exactly what your feeling..lots of love to you xxx

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