[lisah]

I will do…it has helped put some things into perspective.. thanks again 🙂

[lisah]

I will do…thank you

[lisah]

I have no idea…she told a friend that she isn’t going to change for anyone which includes our relationship…I just hope she stays safe…

[lisah]

Thank you…she never returned from her night away to her home town…I think she has made her decision…I just have to accept that 🙁

[lisah]

What you say is so true. I’ve been told that she has to hit rock bottom but I think she has too many enablers around her for that to happen…people who will just keep supplying her with what she needs at that time. I miss the woman I fell in love with but I feel I have lost her and I cant seem to find her anymore.

I just wanted to thank you for taking the time to reply…this means a lot

[lisah]

The sad thing is I don’t think it can be repaired…and that’s what I’m struggling with…if I walk away then what happens…she will get worse and I might lose her permanently…if I stay I’m choosing to accept how she is and all the crap and nastiness that comes with it…my head tells me to run but my heart tells me to have hope that she might change. You’re right..the change has to come from her…I just cant see that happening

[lisah]

I think that is all she has done in her life…she was under mental health services in her home town and they just medicated her for 10 years…said she was too volatile to treat. The sad thing is I’ve seen the amazing side of her…when she was drug and gambling free she was thoughtful, loving, kind…we had fun…we connected. Now I have no clue who she is anymore…aggressive, arrogant, cant string a sentence together…its awful to see.

I have very little support but do talk to a counselor each week…to work on my stuff. As for family I dong have any and friends were pushed away as she was jealous if they were male or female!

[lisah]

Hey…thanks for replying.

The sad thing is that she does have help but lies to them all. She has a drug worker that she tells me says she is just to keep taking what she is taking as it is keeping her safe…her mental health workers have tried to offer her help but because they are not offering a magic pill she is not interested. She is on that much of a bender at the minute she was taken to hospital with a suspected overdose…still she walked out of the hospital as she needed a joint. The help is there but she is not receptive. She now says she is going back to her home town to see her ‘mates’…that just means shes run out of money and she knows they will have anything she wants readily available.

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