[lizzie79]

Hi Claire. I hope you are ok. I am in a

Similar position. It has only been two years but two years that have left me exhausted, drained and feeling that I am not good enough.

What I have learnt is no matter what you do, how much money you give, how you help, nothing is enough until they have The light switch moment

And decide To change. For me

It was him realising he doesn’t love me for him to try and get mor and help so you can imagine how I feel.

I’m trying to figure out how to let him go, the nights are so quiet without his late evening messages of dispair where he needed my comfort.

My head is so messed up. I don’t know how you get over the loss of loosing someone when I stupidly feel not good enough and failed to help him change.

It felt like it was my addiction aswell.

Just take it a day at a time. You know deep down what you need to do.

[lizzie79]

He didn’t need to. His reactions said it all really. Defensive and just hurtful.

Pleased I got if off my chest as no one around me knew about the situation so dealing with it all by myself.

It’s a horrible disease. Destroys everything and you give away yourself in the process.

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