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I find myself in a similar situation. My wife has always had an unhealthy relationship with alcohol, but the last 3 years it has really deteriorated. I got home today at 2.30pm to find she had finished the bottle of vodka which was half full when I left this morning. I find myself constantly checking the line of vodka against the label so I can tell when she has been drinking…the irony being is I can always tell from her behaviour anyway. She was still logged on and “working from home”. If her boss knew, she would be fired immediately. The truth is, she is making me really unhappy, and she knows this, but still continues to drink. I know I should leave, but in truth, that’s so much harder than people think. I love my house, my pets and we can afford to live here with our joint salaries. To move out and start again in my 40s just seems too overwhelming. I know this sounds like cowardice, and it probably is, but I can’t work out what’s worse – a beautiful home, with everything that makes me happy, apart from an alcoholic or a room in an empty cold damp flat on my own. People tell me the second option is the best in the long term, but I can’t bring myself to do it. I hate that I’m less important to my wife than a bottle of vodka.

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