[markman86]

Hi, I’m new to this forum as I don’t want to bring my family into my problems as I’m afraid of what will happen. My misses will leave me with my 3 children, and I know my mum and siblings will support me through it but with massive shame obviously and I’m not doing that to them. I earn good money but find myself lying about my income to my partner to hide my spending habits on cocaine tic bill each month, roughly 600 quid on average every four weeks. The lying is terrible and I feel ashamed as I am taking this money away from what my kids could have and we could have together as a family. I have decided I am paying my dealer what I owe next pay day which is four weeks away and I am deleting his number, I am also deleting all friends and so on social media as you have suggested as this is defo a get out of jail free card. The only issue I have is my friends I use with are actually my friends, best friends, friends I have had for life and I am going to explain to them why I cannot be around or in contact with them for a period of a long time until I am completely happy I am not a user anymore and I am reaping the benefits of not using anymore. Is that possible though or do these life long friends need to go forever. They are more casual users, I use tenfold what they do but whenever we are together that is what happens, no matter what day of the week it is. I hope someone here can relate to this and reply. Thanks.

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