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Hi reading all of this and yip that’s my partner to a T, been in relationship 10 years and that’s all I have known now is his cocaine addiction, it affects everyone not just him. I’m frustrated I’m sick of lies I’m sick or feeling alone I have told him mum and he’s told her before what’s going on but then I don’t want to tell her he’s still doing it, I don’t want to break her heart that all the things he says is what I have heard over and over and over again, I now suffer with bad anxiety I don’t ever believe him he’s able to make up lie very quickly it just comes flowing out his mouth. sorry about the language I’m about to o use but I’m fucking so fed up with cocaine I hate the shit it’s ruined my life and his, he keeps saying he will go to groups he doesn’t he doesn’t want to do it he genuinely has said I want to stop but he just cant seem to, it’s a horrible thing addiction its horrible to see them waste away it’s causing physical damage now aswell, chronic sinusitis problems. Doc says some places in the area that we are from the use dog worming tablets to cut with to bulk out. The thing is half the addicts don’t even realise the shit they are putting up their nose. I have went into a rant. I’m pissed off sad and alone and fed up with it now, I have told him I want to split he just doesn’t listen to me. I have been the person giving into him giving him money as I said he’s good with his lies and all its done is enable him all these years to continue. I really wish he would get help I really do.

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