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Wow! Good for you, Treatment is such a big step! I’m so glad you’re getting the help that you need. Your family will thank you for it. And you can look back at this soon as a bad memory. This is such a good thing that you’re doing, a very good thing. Takes a strong person to do this! stay strong and be proud of yourself.
I look forward to hearing from you soon for an update. X
You’re doing the right thing, if anything you should be proud of yourself.
God bless ya MaryJayne, how are you feeling today? Hope you’re okay hun.
Wow! The levels these dealers stoop too. Praying on the weak and vulnerable
Bless you, you’re right in what you’re saying. I pray your son is okay soon and with a support network like you I’m sure he will be
Bless you, to be honest I am too. It comes in waves, so positive yesterday, rough nights sleep and now I’m feeling like shit and down trodden again. I’m here if you need to chat, you’re really not alone
You’re so welcome, I’m here whenever you feel the need to talk.
Think of the person you were, the person your wife fell in love with, you’re still in there, and you can come back from this. From the outside myself and my friends that are also secret sniffers, also look like the perfect family, no one sees my internal struggle. No one sees me crying in the shower because of the guilt. No one else’s sees it, because it’s our demon we have to be rid of. But the knock on effect it has on our loved ones, that’s my main reason to kick it. I truly believe the fact you’ve come this far, you can and will get better. Honestly.
That’s it there is nothing fun about it, nothing fun about feeling like this. And there is one reason we are all feeling like this. Cocaine. I already feel stronger, knowing that so many others are in the same boat. I feel like we’re all doing this together, if I let myself down I’m also letting you lot down, let alone my beautiful family. Summit has got to give. As I was saying to another person in our boat, we can use the money on so much better stuff, our children for a start. And it’s not just the money, it’s the time we spend feeing lethargic or depressed, we wouldn’t be feeling that way if we wasn’t on a come down or in withdrawal.. our kids would see a much better role model and fun loving parent. You and all of us, are capable of beating it. Kicking it for good
So please for your sake as much as there’s, Remain completely open. Your wife loves you that’s for sure, you clearly love her and your baby.
Class this as a rough patch, the fact you’re talking to us on here is a massive step. You came clean to your loved ones also a huge step to a better you. Cocaine is so glorified amongst our peers, and almost normalised. There’s little shame for people to just whip it out at a house party now, I’ve had girls offer me a line in the toilets at a pub. It’s everywhere, but we’re now in a predicament that we never dreamed we would be in. Which proves there is nothing normal about this filthy drug, people brag about sniffing it, would they brag about being on herion, would they heck. Yet it wrecks just as many lives as Herion does, and for me personally it holds the same shame. I had my last line Friday, I say last line because I truly want to stop. How about you and me stop together. I’m gonna treat my kids with the money I save. How about you do the same? Take the Mrs and baby out into town to a museum and then for a meal. With the money you save, you can treat her to a bit of jewellery or send her on a spa day, prove to her and yourself that if you’re gonna waste money, might aswel waste it on stuff you all can benefit from. I’m praying I can quit for good. I hope it all works out for you. Stay focused. Think of what you can lose if you go back to that drug, but then think of what can be gained for never touching it again. You get to keep the two most important people in your life for ever.
I hear you Larko. You’re already making a step in the right direction. You’re talking about it with this forum. We’re all in the same boat. You can get through it that’s for sure. Because you have so much to lose, you love your family way more than you love this drug. That’s what you need to hold onto.
Me too Larko.
What I’ve came to realise is the high if you can call it a high, isn’t worth £40 a time, isn’t worth the guilt, isn’t worth the late nights and then the endless cravings. It’s just not. I had better highs from dodgy E’s when I was a tear away teen lol. And I wouldn’t dream of taking an E now, so why do I as an adult think it’s normal to waste all this money on such a shit pointless 20 min high, that I’m chasing all night. Finding £20 in my old jeans that’s a proper high lol, eating a naughty slice of pizza is a real good high haha, and it’s a slice I’m not ashamed of. Wouldn’t go around bragging about having a slice of “fruit” cocaine in case you’re not familiar with that terminology lol. I’m even ashamed that I know it lol. I know all the pathetic names for it
Yayo, Beak, Powder, Charlie, fruit, slice, key I mean the list goes on. All things people come up with so they didn’t have to say the word Cocaine. Because it’s not something you want anyone to know about. That’s another reason why I want off it for good. The thought of anyone knowing I use. The thought of my children ever finding out.
I’m out of pocket, and riddled with guilt.
But being on this site, proves we’re not alone, we all share the same guilt, and the same want to be a better person.
Wanna talk about it?? We’re all struggling with something on here, my struggle is cocaine too