[mikeyb]

I’m far from perfect, I make far too many mistakes, I don’t look after myself, I’m massively overweight, and super unfit,

on top of that I’ve got an addiction that I have to fight almost every day, I’ve got insecurities and anxiety that makes everyday harder than it should be,

I’m smart enough to understand the selfish nature of my ridiculous obsession with my own weaknesses and minor problems and I’m fully aware that there are people in far, far worse situations than myself who are strong enough and have the self respect and love for life, to continue and do a far better job than I do at living and appreciating life properly,,

That creates an even lower opinion of myself in my own mind, it reinforces the negative thought patterns that have developed over the years, the lack of self worth I feel,,

I’ve abused my body, my mind, and my soul and I really feel like the damage has started to become real, I never believed that I would really suffer with mental health issues, anxiety or depression but the warnings were real, the threat was real and now the shitty life altering effects are very real, I can feel myself slipping towards the end one bad choice at a time, I had so much potential, I had the intelligence and ability to do so much better. Society needs to fight against the social decay that is drugs and alcohol, too many lives are being stolen.

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