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I too am currently in the same situation.

Been together 8 years I always knew he dabbled in coke on nights out with the lads etc, although he was aware of my disapproval and dislike he continued and I foolishly turned a blind eye. He stated his own business and everything was going well, wed just got engaged saving for our own place. Rewind to last March we moved in to our place and started planning for our wedding, slowly over the months it got progressively worse but I just put everything down to the stress of the business, cocaine didn’t enter my head. He stopped coming to bed at night saying he was doing “paperwork” he would come home late “caught up on a job” still naively never thought of cocaine until I caught him late one night in the office snorting it. We argued, cried made up (we know the drill) this became quite frequent but I never told anyone as I was so ashamed that my life wasn’t as happy as everyone thought, I knew they would judge and I guess telling someone would make it all very real. He stopped coming to any events with me, never spent any time together and yet I still carried on planning our wedding.

We married in March this year and even the week up to the wedding we spent no time together and he wasn’t coming home. Our wedding night, we finally fell into bed and he was asleep almost instantly however he was VERY sweaty, I checked his phone as my gut told me something was off and I found he’d been contacting a woman who I found out was an escort.

Since the wedding everything has fallen apart, the most unhappy of newly weds, he has contacted so many escorts but claims he has never met them just messaged them “for the thrill” I do now have my parents and his onboard helping me and have since told them everything but I just don’t know what to do.

He goes to rehab tomorrow which is good, almost a sense of relief I don’t have to worry or care for him for 28 days.

I just feel I’ve invested so much into our relationship but I’m scared deep down I can’t ever forgive him or trust him again.

I’m so sorry you are going through the same situation, I really do feel for you. Xx

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