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Hi all, hope this Thursday treats you kind.
I’m now 16 weeks and 1 day clean, although I could have happily swallowed some pills yesterday for the pain, but I didn’t I preserved ???????? Maybe I should throw them away to take away the temptation, I must like torturing myself ????
It makes me sad sometimes that when I am in a lot of pain I’m not going to be able to take a strong painkiller to cure it, but then I know where that leads so it’s for the best. But you kind of grieve it in a way if that makes sense ????????♀️
Keep going guys ????????♥️
You’ve got this, just be aware the next few days may get a bit worse but it will pass. Keep taking paracetamol for the headaches, kool ‘n’ soothe strips help too ????
Oh yeah I used to sneeze so much it was like there was a woolly mammoth hidden in the house ????
I told my mum and my doctor, I needed people to know as I felt less alone and knew I’d need the support. I didn’t care, I wasn’t really bothered about anyone judging me as no one is perfect we all have skeletons in our closet. And the only people that mattered understood. Plus I feel it holds me accountable, if I relapsed it’s not just myself I would be letting down. That’s just me though, I’ve always overshared ????
Hi Marky, I’m doing ok in a bit of pain today but staying strong ????????????????
Hope you’re ok and the anxiety is giving you a rest ????????
Just want to say well done to everyone no matter if you are just starting out or are weeks in. It’s not an easy thing to do at all. As Stevie said CT is not for the faint hearted, I’m not sure I’d choose to do it that way again ????
Someone mentioned sneezing, I think is was Kitty? Just wanted to say it’s pretty normal, I sneezed so much and it took a while to settle. I read somewhere that during withdrawal the brain is freaking out without the opiates and sensing pain so it’s making us sneeze to release endorphins to help.
I echo everyone else about not missing the chemist trips, boy were they a pain! Travelling to different ones, lying that I wasn’t on other meds and saying oh yeah I know, short term use only.
I also don’t miss the itching, codeine used to make me itch like a bitch ???? Always looking for the reasons why it’s better to be clean and there are loads. The only good thing about codeine was no pain, and the buzz which got less and less as I needed more and more to get that feeling. The amount of paracetamol I used to take makes me shiver!
I’m so glad we all have this little forum ♥️
I was really worried about this too as I have endometriosis as well as severe migraines. But I’ve managed so far, last month was bad but I crawled through. You will too, you will find the strength from somewhere to manage the pain other ways. I for instance am saving a fortune not buying codeine, but am spending a fortune on heat packs ????????
Hi Tramadol, please don’t feel guilty about wasting money, we all need to treat ourselves and let off steam sometimes. I too used to use codeine for a hangover when I did have a drink. Thankfully I don’t drink very often as I don’t really like how it makes me feel, plus it doesn’t help the old anxiety ????
Kitty 3 weeks wow! I was the same at the beginning, I was envious of people that were weeks into their recovery, I didn’t think that would ever be me.
Stay strong everybody ????????????
Believe me you are not a failure in anyway whatsoever. Look how many people have fallen into the codeine trap, it happens very easily. The point is you are now trying to get clean and that’s amazing!
Could you maybe see your GP and explain what’s been happening, they would be able to give you a short term course of sleeping tablets. Completely understandable if you don’t want to share with your doctor, not everyone does. I just know how much harder everything seems when you can’t sleep.
Either way, keep going you are doing so well, try a hot bath before bed. Some people have said magnesium helps too.
Please don’t beat yourself up, be kind to yourself and be your own cheerleader! What you are doing is hard work. Sending hugs ♥️
Hi access, you’re nearly at a month how amazing is that! It’s not a mess, you have chosen to take your life back and give up the pills, so draw power from that as it’s no easy feat. You are doing so well, the psychological side does take a bit longer to settle but you will get there. You will be free and healthier, be kind to yourself ????
Hi Blackwarrior, 5 days is an accomplishment despite how many times you may have failed before. The fact that you are trying to get clean from this stuff is amazing. It’s not easy at all, but maybe this will be the time ????
I really wouldn’t worry too much about the house being a mess, housework isn’t going anywhere, it can wait. Just focus on taking it one day at a time and keeping hydrated.
I’ve only just now gotten back on top of my housework. For first week or 2 it was all I could do to drag myself to my mums to help her after her hip op. I just about managed to look after my animals and daughter before climbing back into bed.
Don’t feel bad about taking time off work either, it’s bloody hard on your body going through withdrawal, so treat it like an illness where to need to rest and recover.
It will all get easier soon, you’ve got this ????????????
Hi Mark, sorry todays a bit rubbish for you, I’ve had couple of good days but today my anxiety is playing up again. Like you say, good and bad days. Remember we are here for you as much as you are here for us ????????????????
Hi access, you have absolutely nothing to apologise for. I’m sorry you had a rubbish time after having those drinks. I’ve found that I’ve had to cut my coffee intake and can only have 1 cup a day, as it doesn’t help my anxiety at all.
This is an up and down journey, so be kind to yourself ????
Thanks Kittycat, I still can’t believe it’s been that long.
I was lucky that I didn’t get restless legs and my sleep was never affected. I’m so glad yours have eased off now. I’m the same as you, I’m up at 6/7 where’s as before I could lie in until 10/11 it’s good like you say as I’m not groggy all the time and can get more done. Sometimes I wish I could lie in a bit more though ????
Hi everyone, you are all doing so well! ????????????????
It’s more difficult to come of these drugs than people realise so the fact that we have in my opinion makes us bloody warriors!
I remember when I first found this thread and couldn’t wait to get to 18 days, seemed so far, but I’m now over 15 weeks clean ???????? My next goal is 6 months.
I just had to take it one day hell even one hour at a time. I still do now as it’s a lifelong thing. I’m still having anxiety, but I believe I’m stronger now (even if I don’t always feel it!)
Like Tramadol said, every little pain becomes worthy of codeine. One of the reasons I got hooked was because of my severe migraines, but I realise now I was making my headaches worse. I CAN cope with paracetamol, it’s not fun but it can be done.
I must have read this thread about 50 times in the beginning over and over, it was my lifeline . All these strangers going through the same thing as me, made a horrible time more bearable.
I can’t say I will never touch codeine again, I’m not that naive. We never know what’s round the corner, something may happen where we require stronger pain relief. That alone terrifies me, but I think if that day comes and I’m honest with my doctor I can get through it. At the moment the thought of taking codeine gives me so much anxiety that it keeps me away, so that’s a plus ????
Anyway I’ve waffled enough, you are all amazing ⭐️ Keep going, sometimes you think you’ve got it beat, but then it seems like you are taking 2 steps back. This is normal, don’t let it trick you ????????????????????????
Marky, you are not alone with your anxiety, sending hugs ???? ????