When i read this i thought it was my step mum writing it, she has just left my father cause he is an addict, me & my sibling have had to take control, we picked him up from A&E as he was taken there for suicide tendencies, for 3 weeks we have tried to support doing everything. Last night to cut a long story short he throttled me and throw me from his house and I had to drive 150 miles home in the middle of the night with my pets, why is it today that I am feeling anger, emotion, sadness and guilt but know that what he did was wrong. I’m at a loss and am on long term illness myself with no help from him why do I feel this bad. Afraid that we wont speak again, as he has reacted in this way when I was a child deja Vu!!!