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I didn’t know my son was on heroin until it was too late, he had already become addicted. Believe me, the give-a-way signs will come. It’s the after effects that are awful, flu like symptoms, irrational, desperate behaviour, begging for money and help to the point you feel so desperate for him. Also eventually, he will become careless, you will, believe me, start to find needles and other things lying around his room. Things start to go missing, anything he thinks he can sell. I think we all see heroin as the EVIL drug but to be honest, not sure if it is any worse than coke, all I do know is that eventually and in time, what he is taking will not be enough and he will want more or something stronger for his next fix and will do anything to get it. Looking back, I wish I had been stronger and harder from the start. I have only just learnt not to show any emotion to him or let his manipulated convincing stories touch my heart strings.
Hi, I joined this site about 10 minutes ago and have read your posts. My heart goes out to you all. I have recently thrown my son out. He is a heroin addict, is extremely clever and manipulative and you can never tell when he is telling the truth or not. He consistently blamed me for his addiction and his weakness, I would say, on an average at least 20 times per day. If things didn’t go his way he became nasty and verbally aggressive and break things but never his own property. For the first time in what seems forever, I could leave my handbag unattended, not sure why I mentioned that. I suppose what I am trying to lead on to is that, like our adult children, at some point, unsually when we just can’t mentally or emotional take anymore. When your whole body hurts from the pain and guilt that we feel because we are all too convinced that our kids are the way they are because we have done something wrong as a parent. So we make a choice, mine was to disown my son. The son I know died when the heroin took him over. This is the hardest choice I will ever have to make. It is not normal for a mother to make such a choice and I feel evil, hurt, angry and heartbroken and desperate but I know that by making this choice it may, just may, help him to reach rock bottom where he may just realise how and what this evil drug is doing to him. Please tell me if I am evil or if I am doing the right thing?