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Hi fayzey

I’m so gutted about your situation he’s a plank I do hope he gets into rehab asap for you and that he wants to do it, he has to believe in himself too. I totally agree with you for feeling apprehensive with him and well done on you for still being there your one strong lady ????????

I’m doing ok apart from slight pains in my chest think it’s nerves when I’m due to get home.

You are the only people I talk to regularly I have been into Samaritans when we have rowed and talk to frank. Otherwise I’m on my own, I’m even lying to my family to protect him. It hurts.

I’ve been to the gym today as it’s my day off and really enjoyed it. Good endorphins running around my body. Made me feel good.

I found that stuff on my kitchen floor, yep I’ve become paranoid about it, I know what it looks like, tastes like and smells like!!!

I’ve spent my day in a blur he was working so I sat in the kitchen quietly until he finished then made food, he was talking about how much stress he is under how nobody understands he has to explain everything (he the bloody boss) I was angry but kept quiet. He didn’t eat his food said he was feeling sick!!! Too much stress

He told me he knows how upset Iam with him and he doesn’t think he will make this holiday he will be dead!! Nice thing to say, so I said do you want to cancel it, he says you don’t want to go with me (correct) but I didn’t say that I told him I’m so scared that your going to have anxiety attack and how am I going to cope. He got upset and yet again couldn’t talk to me and went up to his room.

I just want to scream at him and tell him to give up the drugs and your health will be better the anxiety attacks will stop and you wont have high blood pressure because your doing this to yourself that’s why your so bloody unwell aasrrrggghhh. (Sorry) but feels good to get that off my chest.

Thank you for all being here

Love to you all

XXX

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Oh my lovely

I do hope you get your freedom soon.

Every time he tries to put you down, count to 5 walk away and remind yourself you are the sane person, you have not changed he is the bad guy, the man possessed with an evil drug.

Yes cry get it out but not in front of him. Be strong like the woman you are.

Thinking of you and sending good wishes to you.

Just take care of yourself and your boys.

navy xx

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Hi fayzey

Sorry to hear your going through this too,

Has he tried to give it up or does he say it but doesn’t actually do it, (just pretends) until you find it again.

I’m just sick and tired of him constantly being unwell, it’s either hay fever, sinus infection, upset stomach, cold, pulled muscles, headache, he can’t be in the same room as me. I feel there is always an excuse.

This is not a marriage it’s existing to wash, cook, iron and clean up. That’s how I feel I’m here as a servant to him. I can’t remember the last time he held me, he tells me he loves me, he is always saying sorry. But this feels like lies like he is telling me because that’s what I want to hear!!

I’m so nervous about going away with him as he feels like a stranger.

Sorry for rambling but it’s nice to talk to someone. To get my feelings out.

Thank you for your support and sharing

Take care and hope things improve for you

Lots of love xxx

[navy]

Hi lovely

I know your heart broken, as you say he is not the man you fell in love with, he has gone, his body is here his but is brain is not. You must think of yourself and your boys, pick yourself up for their sake, you deserve happiness in your life.

I’m hoping and praying for you that the day comes when he realises want he has lost.

Be strong my lovely

You got this. ????????

Lots of love

Navy xx

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Oh themidgetgem

I feel for you.

Why are you still there, that man is no longer your husband, that drug has over taken him big time, he can’t say things like that, it’s awful. Your too kind a person.

You need to live your life your way, it’s not cheating your not seeing anyone just living your life with your boys, keep going out, keep that exercise up and getting good endorphins through your body, you deserve to be happy.

Bo**cks to him. I hope your not cooking for him or cleaning up his mess!!!

I hope he does start working and it gives him the kick start of being a decent human being!!

Count down those days for that wonderful holiday, peaceful time away.

Stay strong ???? live your life the best you can

Thinking of you

Lots of love

Navy xx

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Hi Bella pop

If he wants to come off this drug he has to get professional help and include you in it. You need proof of him if your going to stand by him.

It’s not going to be easy from the posts I’ve read. He will have to stay away from alcohol too.

I wish you all the best and sorry rambling on about my problems.

I hope you get what you deserve the happily ever after.

Stay strong lovely and take care of yourself and your children

Navy xx

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Hi Bella pop

I know exactly where your coming from.

I’m so gutted for you when they say they going to try and sort themselves out you believe them and support them as best you can.

My husband supposed to be off it but I know he lying to me. I know he took it on his own on Saturday night as when I came down on Sunday morning there was bits of it on the table and floor. I cried my heart out…..

He came down and I was sitting there wondering where do I go from here. We are going away in two weeks!!! He so looking forward to it saying how much this is going to reset him!! He was restless all day Sunday couldn’t spend anytime with me. I bloody knew why!!!

I’m in work today and found out he gambled last night too!! I’m devastated. He rang me as if nothing is wrong.I’m ashamed to say I’ve done nothing about it but it’s making me very Ill.

I just don’t know how to start the conversation without it going to a full blown argument or him saying to me that I’m checking up on him!

Oh bellapop what are we going to do. You have two children too which Is so hard for you It should be easier for me (no children).

I wish there was a magic wand out there for us

Thinking of you

Lots of love

Navy xx

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Hi there themidgetgem

How are you? how are things going? Hope your still running and you are getting on with your life. I’ve been thinking of you.

I’m still struggling, I know he had taken the drug last night and he is avoiding me all today he says he tired, he’s anxious and worried, I asked him What was worrying him and he said letting me down yet again not having a weekend together. He says he needs to survive the next 19 days and then Once we are away things will change and he will be ok.!!!!!!!

He still hasn’t opened up to me that he is still using. This was supposed to be 3 weeks off it. I’ve not said anything as Iam trying so hard to leave him be, but I’m making myself unwell, I’m having pains in my chest and feeling sick.

I’m so scared and nervous how he is going to be as I don’t know when he is going to take his last use. Also I don’t know if the drug will show up on him when going though security.

I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing?

Take care, sending you lots of love

Navy xx

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Hi smile1

I understand everything you say it’s so hard when you love them so much. But this drug is evil and turns them into a person you no longer know. You no longer like and want to leave them fir the hurt and anguish they cause you.

Be strong and do what you need to do. I’m following the advice of Jj11 to write a list of what you want in this relationship and the Pros & cons.

I’m hoping it will give me the insight I need to see if this relationship is worth saving.

Stay strong and take care xx

[navy]

Hi Jj11

Hope that your having a good day and your keeping strong and remembering that your an independent woman and you got this.

Thank you for coming back to me.

I’m going to write that list.

My day has not gone great.

My husband doesn’t go anywhere he is constantly in his room with AC going. When I got home today he was in a bad mood, he caused an disagreement I tried so hard not to shout at him. He just doesn’t want to spend time with me (that’s how it feels) he always wants to be in his room. He is always unwell.

He says the reason he sniffs so badley is because of the AC I’ve told him he has to stay out of it for longer. It’s no good for him.

(I know the right reason he still using)

Sending lots of love ???? and thank you for helping me on my journey of discovering me! xx

Take care

[navy]

Hi Jj11

It’s ok yes I think it hit home.

I think if I put my life under a magnifying glass I think it would break

I don’t like my life at the moment, Im lying to my parents about his addiction. I know they can see how much I’m hurting and they don’t know why.

I will sit tomorrow and write myself a list of what I want.

It’s going to be hard as your right I am an empath I always want to fix things put things right don’t argue give in and help when ever and how ever I can.

Your right in taking a day at a time, just look back on your good days, when the bad day comes. You don’t need him. You don’t need the anguish, the lies and how he made you feel. Look at how much better your life is now today.

Your a strong in dependant woman, you got this.

Sending the strength of love to you

Take care

Your tomorrow will be a good day xx

[navy]

Hi Jj11

It’s ok, I cry most nights anyway ????.

Wow what great way with words, if I put my life under a magnifying glass I think it would break

I don’t like my life at the moment, Im lying to my parents about his addiction. I know they can see how much I’m hurting and they don’t know why.

I will sit tomorrow and write myself a list of what I want.

It’s going to be hard as your right I am an empath I always want to fix things put things right don’t argue give in and help when ever and how ever I can.

Your right in taking a day at a time, just look back on your good days, when the bad day comes. You don’t need him. You don’t need the anguish, the lies and how he made you feel. Look at how much better your life is now today.

Your a strong in dependant woman, you got this.

Sending the strength of love to you

Take care

Your tomorrow will be a good day xx

[navy]

Hi Jj11

It’s ok, I cry most nights anyway ????.

Wow what great way with words, if I put my life under a magnifying glass I think it would break

I don’t like my life at the moment, Im lying to my parents about his addiction. I know they can see how much I’m hurting and they don’t know why.

I will sit tomorrow and write myself a list of what I want.

It’s going to be hard as your right I am an empath I always want to fix things put things right don’t argue give in and help when ever and how ever I can.

Your right in taking a day at a time, just look back on your good days, when the bad day comes. You don’t need him. You don’t need the anguish, the lies and how he made you feel. Look at how much better your life is now today.

Your a strong in dependant woman, you got this.

Sending the strength of love to you

Take care

Hoping your tomorrow will be a good day, xx

[navy]

Hi Jj11

It’s ok, I cry most nights anyway ????.

Wow what great way with words, if I put my life under a magnifying glass I think it would break

I don’t like my life at the moment, Im lying to my parents about his addiction. I know they can see how much I’m hurting and they don’t know why.

I will sit tomorrow and write myself a list of what I want.

It’s going to be hard as your right I am an empath I always want to fix things put things right don’t argue give in and help when ever and how ever I can.

Your right in taking a day at a time, just look back on your good days, when the bad day comes. You don’t need him. You don’t need the anguish, the lies and how he made you feel. Look at how much better your life is now today.

Your a strong in dependant woman, you got this. ????

Sending the strength of love down this communication line to you ❤️????

Take care

Hoping your tomorrow will be a good day, xx

[navy]

Hi Jj11

It’s ok, I cry most nights anyway ????.

Wow what great way with words, if I put my life under a magnifying glass I think it would break

I don’t like my life at the moment, Im lying to my parents about his addiction. I know they can see how much I’m hurting and they don’t know why.

I will sit tomorrow and write myself a list of what I want.

It’s going to be hard as your right I am an empath I always want to fix things put things right don’t argue give in and help when ever and how ever I can.

Your right in taking a day at a time, just look back on your good days, when the bad day comes. You don’t need him. You don’t need the anguish, the lies and how he made you feel. Look at how much better your life is now today.

Your a strong in dependant woman, you got this. ????

Sending the strength of love down this communication line to you ❤️????

Take care

Hoping your tomorrow will be a good day, xx

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