[NoMorein2024]

Hope this finds you in a better place… reading about your situation has given me the strength to share mine. I’ve been in this relationship for close to 19 years and we’ve been through it all. We both battled with a heroin addiction but thanks to a fantastic program and wonderful counselors, along with the mutual desire to get and stay clean, we’re both going to celebrate 7 years heroin free June 27th of this year. Yay! Unfortunately, several years back we both dabbled with cocaine. It started with once in awhile and before we knew it, our lives became cocaine. Our relationship was falling apart in every aspect. So, almost 3 years ago, we moved out of the city and into the country and stopped cold turkey. Of course there was exhaustion, irritability and depression but that eventually faded and life was looking up. I had a few relapses but decided over a year ago (on my own), that keeping my life on track, keeping our relationship intact and my new grandson we’re all so much more important than getting high, so I haven’t touched the stuff anymore and for the first time since the first time I did it, I can honestly say that I have no desire to do it again. My longtime bf however is a different story. I think he may want to get clean sometimes but I don’t think he can, at least by himself. The first problem is he doesn’t have the ability or the desire to be honest with himself or anyone else. Which leads me to the issue at hand.

He has turned into a mean, sarcastic, jealous, controlling, paranoid, inconsiderate, self absorbed, hateful, dramatic and accusing A-hole lacking respect, accountability or responsibility almost 24/7. His actions scream “Narcissist’. I’m constantly getting blamed for anything and everything, he accuses me of all things from hacking his phone to cheating on him to moving his stuff around to lying about everything under the sun. He’s extremely paranoid and thinks cocaine has nothing to do with it! I feel so betrayed and alone

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