hi,I through out my husband from our home two weeks ago, I have two little boys myself. Reading your post is like reading my life, I found my husband smoking heroine at home with his mate, I lost it, I couldn’t take it no more, his on program and methadone, but he still has been using, I feel so lost, I don’t know who I am no more, I got some help, it’s what you should do, the worst thing is to be on your own, it’s easier if someone can explain it to you what’s happening and what you already know,but when you live with it you became part of it, if you get help you will stop blame yourself, and that’s a step forward, make sure you get support,that was the best thing I could ever do, my husband was faced with two choices family or drugs, he is working to be clean again, but I won’t let him come back until i know he can do it, it’s so so hard for both of us and kids.
wish you all the best, olive