Hi, so sorry you’re having such a terrible time.
I am in recovery myself from alcohol also so is my mum, if you can afford rehab I would advise it massively. Reaching out to drug and alcohol services and also AA meetings, also for yourself alanon which a meeting for families affected by alcohol.
Only issue is unless your husband wants to stop regardless with what you do he will go back to it, he has to hit his Rock bottom before he decides himself to stop. If he’s doing it for you or anyone else it won’t work.
not truly is the devil and addiction is such a horrible I’llness. I really hope things get better you all.
good luck