you really must put urself 1st & your child. My husband left 4 months ago using cocaine too but since he came outta prison he as lost the plot completely constantly accusing me until one day he beat me so bad I couldn’t even see !!!
U may feel life without will be worse but I assure you start loving urself & concentrate & child & work & you will realise life without him will be a lot better without all your stress.
I too wanted to help but he carnt even admit his wrong doings .
We had everything & a future I thought!! 3 kids 2 dogs a beautiful home mortgage & it’s all left me to me to sort out now cus I carnt afford mortgage on my own as I work part time. My husband was so loving suppporting now he also is a monster & he has put me off men for a loooonnngggg time.