I know how you both feel. I have been with a man for many years now and he has just left me for cannabis and speed. I couldn’t take anymore and I didn’t want my children to be affected but the pain of being abandoned is hard. I feel like I wasn’t good enough and that he has chosen a lifestyle of drugs over his family- he even said as much. He knows it’s selfish but he can’t help it. Since leaving, he has been doing a lot of drugs and I’m sad because at least when he was home with us it was controlled. I don’t want to lose him, he is a good person and loving but he is devoted to drugs not to us. I just pray that one day he will realise for himself that he needs to be free.