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I don’t know what to do.

I’ve gone to stay at my mums.

I texted him saying that I was giving him time and I hope he’d talk to me about it but I didn’t want to blindside him again by talking face to face.

He’s replied but is still denying the drugs. Says he can’t be my perfect man and that although he loves me he isn’t the right man for me.

I don’t understand why he is still denying it. I feel like I’m going crazy.

I’m fed up of feeling sick

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Hi Navy

Thank you for getting back to me so quickly.

I know how you feel. I was diagnosed with anxiety years ago and this has made it so much worse. I am barely eating and waking up at 3am with my heart racing. The only thing that calms me down is reading the forums on here. It reminds me that I’m not making this all up.

I know it’s the job. If he left the job he wouldn’t need it but I just know that is never going to happen.

It hurts so much because I know we still love each other. But we don’t have a relationship anymore. He sleeps ALL the time and he’s always said it’s just because he’s tired from work but no one needs that much sleep. While he slept I’d do all the house work, food shop and sort the dog out and he would still be asleep by the time I’d finished. Either that or he’d just be lying in bed snacking. Is this a symptom of a comedown?

I’m trying my best to research but this drug just seems so strange. I always thought drugs made you so addicted you had to take it everyday but this isn’t like that..

I’m currently lying in bed summoning up the courage to bring the topic up again. He’s nearly acting like himself again but I know that’s probably because he’s been WFH. The thing is we both know he can’t avoid work forever.

Sending so much love to you xxx

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Thank you for getting back to me.

His denial makes me feel like I’m going crazy!
I am really trying to understand how this drug works..

I was going to tell him I’m leaving for my mums, but when I got in from work he was drinking beers in the lounge (first time he’s been out of bed in two days). He’s constantly going to the toilet, moving about and sniffing tons.
Now I know about it, it’s hard ccd not to think he has used again tonight. Im going to wait until tomorrow now.

His personality is incredibly stubborn anyway so I genuinely don’t think he will come clean or get help until he decides to.

If he admits there is a problem I will help him but if he doesn’t there isn’t much I can do.

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Hi Navy

I have been searching the forums and found your first posts about your partners addiction.

It seems really similar to my situation – please could you give it a read it’s the one titled ‘denial’?

I am so so sorry that this has happened to you.. happened to all of us.

I really need someone to talk to about what is going on as I’m desperate.

Xxx

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