My son has been smoking cannabis since he was 15. He has so many mental health problems -agoraphobia (except to go out and buy cannabis), sleep and dreaming problems, eating disorder, depression, anxiety, obsessiveness – I don’t know where to start. 3 years ago we were at a huge crisis because of his anger and called the police 3 times. They were always kind and understanding to all of us, but they did take him away once and another time made him leave the house. He used to make me feel guilty and threaten suicide and self harm which made me even more scared. I read lots of books and self help articles and I’ve got over the fear and guilt, and things have improved now he knows he can’t control me.
We’ve had a couple of hours of tantrums this evening and now he’s apologetic and lovely but says he hates himself and everything about his life. I’m exhausted now but I’ll write again, and thank you for being there and understanding.