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Hi there,

I found this online and could relate i had to come on as I dont really have anyone thats knows the full extent of what I’m going through.

I am with my boyfriend a year and a half now. I know him many years before this so know his mam passed away 2 years ago, we got together and everything was fine obviously I knew he was gonna be down about his mam, fastfoward a little bit as I dont want this to be too long he know admits he has a serious cocaine addiction. In the last 2 weeks he has started CA meetings. But has relapsed. It has gotten so bad with him that one day he had a physcosis moment and fully believed I snuck someone into the house he kept pulling at my pants thinking someone was playing with me. He becomes extremely verbally abusive towards me and now on a normal day he is extremely paranoid (he smokes weed too) to the point where I cant even have a shower and he is questioning it , I got a taxi up to his house the other day and the first thing he said to me when he opened the door was why did you get out of the taxi over there. He questions everything always has bad feelings. This is just the start of it I could write a book. Over lock down I have been living with him but I feel like my own mental health is really suffering and trying g to reassure him that im not up to anything with anyone else and hoping he doesn’t take it is really taking its toll, I feel like everyday everything is about him and his problems. I cant keep doing it , I feel like I’m on the verge of a nervous breakdown and im sorry if all of this doesn’t make sense but I jumped on straight away when I saw yere stories.

I hope ye are all OK xxx

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