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Hi Alex1111.
I found a youtube video by a lady called Louise Clarke. her channel is called higher insight and she helps addicts to recover being a previous user herself. That might be a place to start. I’m not saying this is all you’ll need to do. But it might be worth watching her videos at least. it could put you on the right path.
I’m in exactly the same position as you right now. My partner was an amazing person and I still love him so much. He started behaving weirdly about a year ago. lost a few jobs and never had any money. I thought the job loses were Covid related (He also works in a trade). But then he started taking my debit card from my bag and disappearing with the car for two days at a time. He was withdrawing 20 – 40 pounds a time. I was texting him begging him to bring the car back and he was just blocking me.
Meanwhile I was paying for everything. The bills, the rent and all our son’s medical expenses (he’s 3 years old and has Autism).
on Christmas eve he finally came home. He was acting strangely again but i’d gotten so used it, it just seemed like him. I went to bed and he stayed up. At about 2:00am I got a phone call from his best friend because my partner had sent him a video of himself committing suicide. I went downstairs and thought he was dead. I can’t tell you what that felt like. As i was calling the ambulance, he sat up and i realised he hadn’t really tried to kill himself, he’d just made a video and sent it to his friend, bt he was very high and made some comments that made me feel unsafe.
All I could think about was protecting my child, so I went back upstairs and called the police, he was arrested and taken to hospital for a mental health assessment.
I called him every hour at the hospital to make sure he was ok and they released him later in the evening of the same day. he went to his mum’s at my request.
I took our son to visit him on Christmas day and then on boxing day he stood up and told his parents he was going to visit a female friend. Since then I’ve discovered that he’s been with this girl since the beginning of December.
He has been clean for four weeks now and has his first meeting set up for the 26th. He says he loves me and misses me and asks to see me, my son and the dog. He texts me a lot BUT every weekend, he goes to this girl and while he’s there, he blocks me. It breaks my heart every single weekend and i just sob alone with my autistic child in our family home. Its truly awful.
I still love him and want him to recover so that we can be a family again. I’m also hoping to hear success stories 🙁