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Hi PinkWings

Well I want to start by telling you how amazing you have been, and I hope there will come a time when you can realise this.

There are very few parents/loved ones that would have gone to the lengths you have to try and help the son you love. “You don’t take drugs, the drugs take you” literally sums it up in one sentence.

Although I am currently struggling with prescription painkillers, I am a recovered crack and heroin addict and the first thing that I feel is important to tell you is your son is not going to give this addiction up until HE wants to. And unfortunately no amount of love and support is going to change that. Unless you have ever experience the feelings that crack and heroin give you, it must be so difficult to understand but you need to know that you you DID do everything you could, and more.

When I look back, I would say that crack had a bigger hold on me than heroin did. It is so intense, so euphoric, and no matter how much you smoke, it’s never enough.

I feel helpless to find something to make you feel any better about your situation, other than to try and help you understand what a grip these two drugs have on you, and how you couldn’t have done more to help your son.

It is not selfish at all to put yourself first now and get the help you need to help you come to terms with everything that YOU have been through, through all of this. It much too often becomes about the user, but what you have been through needs to be your priority now.

I hope that maybe something in all that I’ve said has been helpful.

Hang in there, PinkWings, you sound like you are strong enough to make it through to the other side.

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